jus those moments.....



25th july.....10 p.m...

Electricity goes....Starts to downpour..............Sittin outside.....feelin d rain on my face....

playin guitar......Tryin to be in harmony wid d fallin rain drops...........Singin fav. song.....

dis time fr d most special heart on earth....- own..........

singin wid d whole heart n soul....yet so mesemerized by own voice.......

jus realized.......

in d search fr true love, don ever forget to ove urself !!!

no other heart can beat 24 hrs a day...365 days a year ......for u... !! no other........

PLACED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so finally......after a month since d campus placements started....sat fr accenture n TCS ...couldnt get thru !!! haa....bt dis time..it was d 3rd time....n u knw, as it's in bollywood movies, 3rd time its always lucky !!!


INFOSYS it is....or yeh, to put some jazz element "INFY".......i really wanted it , esp. after watchin deir presentation n watchin d pics of deir Mysore dveelopment cnetre where we'll undergo trainin fr 4 months !!! sexy centre !!! has to be...it's d dveleopment centre of INDIA's No.1 IT Company !!!!!!!!!

life seems so calm n peaceful now !!! now atleast i can live in peace fr a year..until i join d company in August 2007....till den...no lectures frm mom-dad !!! no taunts abt studies n all !!!

d evenin i gt placed, i mean after d results came out !!!! mom - dad were jus so happy !!! haha....mom jus cundt stop huggin n kissin me !! ha....now she cud also tell her friends abt her son's outta world acheievements !!! hahaha.....ladies n deir stories !!!!!!!!!!!!

feels good now.....now i can enjoy my hwole 4th year !!! no tension.....life's suddenly so beautiful !!!! i can really concentrate on my designin n music now !!! pheeww !!

"time fr some action"

adios AIESEC

ohhhhk !!! i knw ....i havent posted up anythin d whole past week !!! bt yeh...dere's so much dat happened in d past week !! n i jus cudnt get time to blog it up here fr all of u (dose who do care to read it :> )......

first of all....d week started wid some serious introspection.....fr dose of u who dont knw, i've been in dis amazin student organization knwn as AIESEC !!! a org. dat provides u such a hug n diverse platform to develop urself , as u want to !!! n all dis comes wid an amazin culture, dis org. has...i'd been in dis wonderful org. fr almost d past 2 years....d best of my pals, i made thnx to dis org...d best moments of my life i had, thnx to dis org...d best of d crushes i had, thnx to dis org..lol !!!! bt seriously...d best knowledge experience...d best exposure...everythin jus d BEST !!! all thnx to dis org. called AIESEC !!!!! dese 2 years had been jus so amazin...
still love all dose endless memories....cryin all nite wen linda left :'( ....supreet n me makin all dose endless startegies wid tatsuya to impress natalie...carol tied me a 'rakhi'.... comin frm parties at 6 in d mornin n gettin caught by dad on comin frm d backdoor !!
endless 'ducth pasta' dinners at 36 trainee house thnx to karlijn....baris n his security issues....luisa n her "preeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet" shout ~!!! sanni's expressions...n yeh, adriana..one of d warmest trainees i ever met !!
oh man...so many , memories !~!!!!!

bt yeh....time to move on...all dese memories r gonna be there...forever !!! jus wanna thnk all of u who were a part of my wonderful experience in dis wonderful organsiation ....startin frm d recruitemnts in 2004 to JNC 2006 !!! all d ppl i met....all d trainees....eveyrone...i wont be able to forgot anyone of u !! coz without anyone of u, it wud'nt have been d same !!!!

"adios"

Mumbai - one day i'd never forget...

jus termed as "d rudest city in d world" sometime back, d mumbai blasts have surely turned d image upside down....all d time on d news d channel, u cud hear d news correspondents praisin d city's general public fr comin up wid all deir support - physical n financial as soon as 8 serial blasts rocked Mumbai, d financial capital of India ,leavin almost 190 ppl dead n around 650 injured..d 8 blasts occured in d local trains on 7 diff. stations on d western line of d city....

well...i guess its high time, we seriously took some action against terrorism..bt yeh, wat can u do, wen its dere mixed wid d whole system only !!! obvioulsy, each one of us feels proud to be a part of dis gr8 nation...bt wat to do, wen u gt d whole nation runnin in hands of some corrupt ppl...its jus pathetic...n things like dese jus make me feel like "y ???"...

ah...dis post wasn't supposed to be fr d "mumbai blasts" or abt "terrorism n politics"....jus wanted to share my experience abt d day we were comin back frm d conference in goa...d train, back to chandigarh was late at nite...n we reached mumbai at around 8 in d mornin...
now dis wasn't any other day...atleast nt fr me !!! it was rainin like hell in delhi...n yeh, d news channels had already exxagerated d whole thing n flashed across their screens "mumbai flooded again"......n dere i was wid a few other friends...standin outside d railway station...don knw where to take shelter fr d day ??? n yeh..fooood...damn..we were jus so hungry !!!
n d best part of dis story was !! i jus had 80 bucks in my pocket fr d whole day !!!

nw..bfore we cud decide whether we shud take a room in some guesthouse near d station or we go to khsitij's relatives place...d first option was better bcoz it was jus near d station..n if, as d news channels said, wud get flooded ..we wudn't have much risk of loosin on d train at midnite !!
bt den, d second option (khsiti's relatives) was free !!! included some yummy foood tooo...waah !!
bt den bfore we cud jus analyse n make a choice....hordes of taxi drivers surrounded us in a sec...askin us where we wanted to go..whether we wanted some room...food...or a taxi ?? waaat !!! n yeh, dese mumbai taxi drivers reallly gt up to our nerves....dey jus didnt understand dat we cud handle things on our own !! wateva we wanted to !!!...bt yeh thnx to dis "sikh" driver..who was a bit annoyin as others in d beginnin..bt den he gave us a nice option..coz we didnt have enough money, he suggested we cud go to d gurudwara nearby...d accomodation n food problem wud be solved !!! ahan !!
well d others weren't dat convinced bt i wanted to !!! coz yeh, i thought it wud be excitin !! gurudwara n excitin ?? yeh, atleast somethin different, i thought....
even though dey offered to lend me some money .,..i thought 80 bucks wud be enough to spend a day in d gurudwara....ha..wat wud i need money fr ???
so, without wastin anytime, i picked up my luggage my left fr d gurudwara !!! jus abt 15 mins walk frm d station, dere it was...after registering myself there, dey gave me a small cupboard where i cud keep my stuff...jus threw my suitcase n bag there...changed my clothes n den i was like "hmmmmm......still gt 14 hrs to go, wat do i do ??"....well surfed net at a nearby cybercafe...roamed around in d street enjoyin mumbai's drizllin rainfall, watchin it make d traffic go all random !!!
ah..finally it was lunch time..n i surely love d langar (food dey make in gurudwara..also called community kitchen)...i rushed back to d gurudwara to only find dat dey were still cookin !! huh....
bt wud dey let me jus have it !!! naaa ~!! everyone stayin dere had to help in makin d langar..kinda "earn ur bread" thing..haha..jus jokin...
d old man wid a big belly, was obvioulsy d main incharge of d gurudwara's kitchen as i'd guessed bfore only...bt man, he was jus so organised...makin sure eveyrthin's goin perfect rite frm cookin d food, cleanin up d place, settin up d utensils n all !! i chose to help in d cleanin..coz yeh, as most of u knw, i love cleanin...gives me so much satisfaction !! lolzz !
after havin d langar..i was still left wid abt 9 hrs..man..i'm jus so bad at killin time..i was hardly left wid around 60 bucks. now....
so i thought i wud see a few places around here !!! in 60 bucks ?? yeah.,..i was enjoyin it actually...living up a day as an INDIAN...coz here, money's not d factor to achieve wat u dream..u shud hav d will !!!
took d local train n left fr churchgate...thought wud be kool to spend an hour or two along d sea side....wow..
bt yeh, it's mumbai..so ur "perfect plans" jus never fall in place !!! i had jus walked half a kilometre to reach d marine drive..was jus startin to d enjoy d sea side..even though i hate to be alone....so dere it came again..bt dis time..it was more quick n a heavy one..."downpour"...
aaahhhh....man, i'd spent 7 bucks outta my lil' pocket to come here n d rain spoiled it all !! huh ....bt hey hey, d rain gods were in no mood to care fr dis lil' guy over here....rain..rain n more rain...wud it ever stop !! didnt seem so !!!
i was already drenched in water..bt still, i was lovin it !!! i jus love to experience new things..don't i ??? well, if i have an umbrella, i surely do love it !!!
bt here...i hardly any money to buy one ! !! man...i was regrettin so much, i didnt borrow some...bt den again, i was like "hey..dis is life"..i was like dis fr jus a day..wat abt dose u gt to spend 364 days more dan me, like dis in d whole year...!!!
bt den i gt a cheap bargain fr a raincoat-kinda-jacket..nw atleast, i cud save d upperhalf frm dis rain !!! n it was fr jus 30 bucks...in d rags!! hey hey..jus 30 bucks to go !!!! hahaha....
i was really laughin at myself, hw much i was carin abt money !!! wish i was dat careful all d time....
jus passin thru Cafe Coffee Day, i so much wished to go in n have some hot coffee...listen to some nice music...n jus relllaaaaax !!!!! i wish i cud !!! bt hey, don i wanna spend d day as an ordinary INDIAN !! who's gt to think 50 times bfore spendin a buck !! coz it's all a matter of priorities..
so dere, i jus gt happy seeing d ppl inside Cafe Coffe Day njoi deir coffee...wat else cud i do !! bt hey, i cud still afford d famous "vada pao of mumbai" frm d roadside halwai !!! jus 5 bucks..ha..bon appetite !!!
comin back to d gurudwara...i again went down to d kitchen...dey were preparin fr dinner...helped dem fr sometime until it was 7 pm....ahhh... nw it was time fr Kirtan (singin of hyms in d gurudwara by d baptised sikhs)
n guess wat !!! i gt to knw dat later though..dat dere was a special KIRTAN DARBAR dat day !! lucky me !!!
i thought sittin n listenin to d kirtan was d best option, i had...considerin d bad weather outside..n my pocket too :p ....
n hey, it was actually d first time dat i actually sat fr so long , listenin to d kirtan..actually 3 hours...wow !!! n i loved it so much dat day !!!! i really enjoyed it ...n as my mom says "ruu nu lag jaanda hai" (it really touches d soul)....dat day, i definitely realised d importance of listenin to gurbaani....its jus so soothing !!! man...nw i gt 1 thing less to argue wid my mom on !!
dis was jus d most perfect endin to d day, i ever had..n certainly, i never expected it to be like dis...
had langar(dinner) after dat...n left fr d station..was gud to c everyone again...bt den, i surely did enjoy d whole day..all alone...n yeh, u do need a break esp. wen u're comin frm a conference where u've been livin, eating n sleepin wid ppl..ppl.. n ppl everywhere...!!!
n yeh, a piece of advice fr all dose who forget to carry enough cash while travellin n who want dose "different kinda" experiences..jus enjoy wateva u do...to kill time...even if its jus moving frm one platform to another ..coz yeh, u cudn't think of anythin better !!!!! jus njoi !!

"surely, a day worth rememebrin..."

Snapshots...contd..


5. well d best moment of all was definitely d time, we all wrote sugarcubes...fr dose of u who dont knw wat sugarcubes r !! generally at d end of our conferences, we've got an envelope for every person at d conf. with their names on it, stuck on d wall of d plenary hall...somethin like a letter box..so..if u wanna write somethin to someone, jus scribble it on a paper slip n put into their envelopes....
now dats d time, wen ppl really comment on u !! surprsingly, u get sugarcubes (messages) frm ppl whom u jus gt to knw abt a day or two back !! tellin u how much dey appreciate u or like u !! n dat really gives u kicks !! does it ?? fr sure man !!! it's not only d time to get to knw wat ppl think abt u !! bt fr vice-versa too !!
to let others knw wat u think of dem !! n believe it or not..we tend to get emotional, even wid dese small chits of paper....everyone does treasure dem..i've gt d sugarcubes frm my last conf. too, kept safe in my study table !!...man !!! it's ironical ..coz it's d last nite...u're sad it's endin...on d other hand, u're a bit happy too wen u get dose nice-nice compliments !! bt yeh, an emotional moment !! 'sob-sob' i'm missin it already ..'sob-sob'....

6.last bt not d least...d momnent i wud treasure forever...n while writin abt it too, i can recall n visualise it again !!!
after d conf. was over..we'd gt jus half a day fr goa...even bfore checkin out..rishab, rajat n me rushed fr d beach (yeh, we gt late fr checkout !! n fr sure, everyone was angry wid us fr dat :p)..was d first time, i was gonna see d beach...n moment i reached dere...it was like "aaawwwwwwwww man"...."wat've i been doin fr d past 20 yrs"....d view was jus so amazin...coz all u cud see was water...water water everywhere, not a drop to drink !! ha...reminds me of albatross !!!
anyways, d view was jus so amazin...d sea jus seem to be so magnified !! n dats wen u realise, how small a part you are of dis world !!! n u jus get dat urge to have it all !! somethin like d scene in 'titanic'..standin on d edge, wid ur arms up..u feel like d whole world's at ur feet !!!
seriously, i jus had dat kinda feelin....standin infront of dose huge waves..it felt like dey were givin all deir energy to me !!! ah man !!!! jus so amazin !!!!!
"anyone lend me a time machine ?...i wanna go back"

Snapshots !!


okie..so jus few of d moments frm JNC dat i wud never forget !!!!! jus wanted to share even though u wudnt understand d gravity of those moments..LOL...nothin dat serious yaar...jus some treasured moments..'pal..yaad aaenge ye pal'...

1.jus about 1 hr. far frm madagaon railway station..already entered goa..train glidin smoothly under d cloudy sky...green n blue is only dat i cud see....all green all around...wid d backwaters makin a perfect contrast to d pic !!! amaizngly beautiful ! hardly any traffic...or any kinda congestion..evrythin at peace..so calm...so..so..beautiful !! wish i cud explain it better...suddenly it starts drizzlin den..me jus sittin on d window seat..my head on d sill...cool breeze flowin thru my hair...it was jus 'perfect' ..dats wat all i can say !! n den..i don knw y..bt i cudnt resist myself frm singin my fav song..rabbi's 'tere bin'...man...i sang it jus so slowly..n i was lovin it..i loved d view..d raindrops..d song...jus perfect...wudnt ever forget it ~~~!!!

2. at d Parthiv's discharge...man..wasn't i happy..coz i really hated dat guy fr his sarcasm n attitude !! bt i guess, i had been jus too judgemental !!! jus while endin his speech he quoted "today AIESEC'ers need to focus more on the character part dan d personality one"...one sentence n it changed it all !!! man..dat was jus so rite...even if it was straight frm Steven Covey's 7 habits...it jus had such an impact !!! surely, dat man's gt some charisma !

3.don remeber which party it was...rishabh n me were gettin bored...while goin back to our rooms, rishab gt dis crazy idea of sittin besides d pool..he said "puttin d legs in d pool" was jus so relaxin...so after 5 mins...both of us sittin dere..legs dipped in d pool..n here it agains starts drizzlin..dat was d funniest thing abt goa..jus starts rainin any sec...next sec its as if it never rained !! jus too abrupt !! anyways ! now..we wanted to observe how d rain drops fell !! so we lied down on our backs on d floor...was jus amazin..watchin dose raindrops fallin..wid such a high velocity towards earth...jus to make it more perfect..we started singin !! yeh..n dose of u who havent heard rishab..good fr u !!! haha...bt still...was so much fun..we sang eveyrthin frm bollywood classics like "pyaar hume kis mod pe le aaya" to greenday's "boulevard of broken dreams"...n yeh ofcourse...i had to add "tere bin" in btw !!! another moment treasured !!

4.now..dis didnt happen jus once bt again n again....d whole day durin d conference i used to wear my turban..n durin d parties at nite..i wud jus go without it !! not many knw dat i had my hair cut !! so dey jus didnt recognise me....dis is d best one....d whole day i talked wid anoushka abt d learnin events n plans of @ mumbai....durin d party at nite, i jus went to her n said 'hi'...n she turns around...gives dat 'look' like i was a serial rapist who jus landed out of jail..ha...n dey she says "do i knw u"...man !!! dat was funny..fr me !! ha..den obvioulsy wen i told her..it was d same old question..."y do u wear a turban"...now y do u need long hair to tie a turban !!! i dont get it !!

....to be continued ~!!!!!!! .....srry fr d break up !!!

"keep watchin dis space fr more.."

Australian Breakfast !! hmmm...

now..dis is another one frm d JNC kitty !!

last day of d conference...already 9 a.m. n me still in bed !!! my room mates were all rushin fr d plenary hall in such a hurry... as if d tsunami was gonna strike again..dis time goa !!
bt hey..did i care abt it ?? naah !! i wud've if i knew dat dey're gonna serve me some excitin 'australian breakfast' if i gt late fr d plenary !!
now...9.30 am..gt nicely dressed..tied my turban..n left fr d plenary...all to realise dat i wasnt d only one bt 3 more guys were dere..who jus cudn't get deir lazy bums outta bed in time fr d plenary !!
now i knew, d chair wud obviously have some nice n embarassin punishments (or 'presentations' as dey call in aiesec) fr d late comers...aha !!! dere it was...i cud see dat smile on paris's face (d chair of d conference).....
very eagerly he introduced d four of us to d plenary !! wow !! 'applause' !!!! as if d plenary was jus gonna see some 'belly dancers' performin ~~!!
so...planned already...our stuff was ordered !!! yeh !! fr being late, we were to be served 'australian breakfast' !! yeh...u still wonderin if dat was a punishment or wat ~!!??
guess it fr urself !! d breakfast consisted majorly of beer !!!! we had to consume half a mug each !!!
yeh yeh...don get dat excited....coz it was 'australian breakfast' so it had to be "healthy" as quoted by paris !! so..in dat mug of foamy beer went 2 raw eggs...yup...2 raw eggs...den some chopped tomatoes..wid some pieces of cheese...into d beer !!! yeh !!! n to garnish it all...put some ketchup on d top....now mix it up all !!!
so if u forgot, here are d ingredients..i wud strongly recommend all of you 'please do try this at home'...
  • one mug beer
  • put 2 raw eggs in it..
  • some chopped tomatoes
  • pieces of cheese
  • some ketchup to garnish
  • mix it up all !!!

yeh !! now drink it up !! it felt like i was in some 'fear-factor' show !! don knw y, bt i still felt..i wudn't be dat bad !! so i went ahead n picked up d glass !! first one to go !!

4-5 big sips n half of it was down my throat !! bt d tomato pieces were still dere im my mouth !!! eeeyuuuccckk !!!!!!!!!!!!! bt still...i gt dis big smile on my face after i knew it was done !! 'mission fateh' !! yuu huu !!!

to be honest..most of it jus tasted of beer !! d rest of d stuff was jus dere to scare u psychologically..or cud be bcoz i drank d first half...d upper one !!

d whole day i had ppl askin me 'how was it' ...'how was it'...!!! if dey were jus so curious, y didnt dey jus make one such cocktail fr demselves !!!

so again..i'd suggest u all :

'please do try dis at home'

Change -- dat's wat life's all abt.....

13 days away frm home...livin wid guys u knw bt u don't !!! couldn't figure it out ?? even i cudn't....ppl r jus too unpredictable...too mysterious at times...n dis randomness jus increases exponentially wen instead of jus 14 d number becomes 240 !!! some of them u think u knw....some of them - ur friends...some strangers..some u jus tend to hate fr no reason...some - u jus get attracted to !!! strange ! strange ! strange !
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i knw but dat's how i've been feelin durin d whole of d confernce !!! JNC aka June National Conference 2006....in Goa !!! - well doesnt matter where it is coz u can't go out of d venue durin d entire conf. which leaves u to jus half a day for packin up ur stuff....checkin out...den convincin everyone dat we shud go to d nearest beach n enjoy wateva time we gt ...den u gt ppl who jus won't sit at d beacj bcoz dey don wanna get wettt !@!!!!! oh man !!! dey cud'v gt those pics wid d sea in background by photoshop tooo !!!!
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yeh...ppl do act strange at times !! n so do i !!! bt hey, d learnin i gt frm d conference has been jus amazin .....not dat it was all about aiesec...bt of course, wen u get to interact wid so many ppl...frm diff. parts of d country...diff cultures...diff thought levels....jus so different !!! it jus amazin !! n yeh, sometimes shockin !!!!!!!!!
...
thnx to my almost introvert nature, i cudn't interact wid d most of d ppl i wanted to !!!! n now i'm jus too tired of dis !!! don knw y i feel so shy at times !! be it d 12 yrs i spent in a boys school or wateva !! i jus cant spend whole of my life like dat !!!! boy !!! it's time fr a change !!! a BIG one !!!
ha...sometimes i jus laugh at myself !! haha..seriously...jus 1 compliment frm a grl...n here mr. Preet goes all red n pink !!! even sayin a "thnk u" in return takes more effort dan liftin up the 50kg. rod in bench press ~~...
y ???? y am i like dat.....chal...wateva be d reason...bottomline : time fr some change...or rather i'd say modifications...coz ya..don think i'm gonna be some flirty arrogant bastard now !! naaaah....dat's jus not me !!!
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so yeh....dere's a lot to share abt dis conferences....abt d travel....abt d ppl...abt d grls ?? ha...u wanna knw dat fr sure...yeh kd ???? ....u'll get to knw everythin yaar...don get dat excited :) ...

dis conference fr sure had its own impact...somethin dat i'd been thinkin abt....plannin abt....bt yeh, like aiesec.....nothin's done if it's not implemented !!!

so hope dis time...i do dat !!! i knw no one's perfect ~!! bt yeh, i'm gonna strive hard to make dat margin btw preet n perfect infintesimally small !!!!!!! yea --- u bet i will !!!!!!!!!

"time to make a CHANGE"

beaches !! palm trees !!! blue sea !!!! ohhhhhhhh......



hey ppl...me off to another AIESEC conference (actually my 2nd one ;>)... so yeh no bloggin till 5th july !! bt u bet ! i'm gonna have loads of stories, gossips n some amazin moments to share wid u all (dose who care to read it) wen i come back....leavin at 6.30 tom mornin (tooooo early !!)...chd to delhi..den delhi to mumbai ..n den on sunday, we wud finally reach GOAAAA !!! yeh, d conference is in goa !! oh man..i'm jus so excited ..i knw its gonna be f*ckin hot in goa at dis time of d year !! bt who cares..an AIESEC conference it is !!!!!!!!! loads of fun in n d travellin part too i hope :) ..oh ya' i jus can't write anythin else...gt to shop bfore i leave..some beach wear ;) ;) ....take care..i'll be back soon !!!!n as kd puts it - adios !

ME HAPPY !!!



me Happy
still need an explaination
me happy
isnt all dat matters...
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jus sorry, jus smile
me happy
grudges gone - one while
me happy
..
me happy
dat song made
me happy
bt not paid..
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happy..happy..
words..no more..
jus a smiley :)
in d core
me happy !!!
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" random post = me happy :) "

is Silence always Golden ????


is silence really golden !!! huh ?? well fr d past few days, i've been thru things that've totally made understand that silence brings nothin else dan crap to u !!!

being an ambivert, i take sometime to open up wid ppl...bt still i never complain to dem on their face..even if i feel bad abt somethin....bt hey...jus gt to knw now dat its better off to slap off wateva crap ppl give u..jus don accept it ....

as my elder bro always said "in life, jus don take crap frm anyone !!! d only ones who can r ur parents ..dey gt da right to do dat..frm anyone else..no way ~!!!! "

n now i realise how correct he was ~~!! u cant jus expect ppl to be sensible enough to judge wats right n wats wrong !! wat to say ...wat not..!! wat to do..wat not !!!! coz dey're not u n u're not dem !!!
bt still, i guess keepin ur cool is fine till a certain extent..bt if u wanna keep quiet bcoz u wanna avoid stuff messin up, no use...it's gonna get more messed up anyways !!! ha....u try ur best to accept things as they come...thus expectin that to happen at ur time too !! bt hey, ppl jus knw how to give crap..to take it - they're pretty smart at it !! coz they won't !!!

i wish life was jus a WWE ring...where punches..kicks..n slams did d talkin...nothin else !!! keepin on knockin out each other....
in life too..ppl hit u where it hurts d most...bt d one who hits d most is not d one who wins..its d one who hits d last !!!....."chokeslam"...

"crap - ppl love givin it..accept it or not..upto u !!!"

Be a Rebel !!!!


Change is definitely d flavour of life !!! "Change"...Indeed...d word itself sounds so refreshin to me....n i jus cant live without it !!!
life wud be so borin without it..so monotonous...n somewhere down the line it affects our efficieny too..to a gr8 extent i guess...life bcomes borin..so does d work..u feel lazy all d time..no motivation..no enthu...n yeh, den u jus don knw how time passes by n haven't even done a single bit of wat u planned to !!! n dis feelin of guilt is jus so not good..................

well....i always do things that aren't everyone's favourite....i hate to do things dat're common...ha..dat's y i hate to wear d common branded clothes...coz they all gt d same pattern..n man i'm so fussy abt it !! y shudn't we ?? we got to look different frm others...we gt to feel different..we got to BE different !!!!!!

for past quite sometime, i was feelin as if d time wheel has jus skipped past a few decades...dis borin monotonus life made me feel so OLD !!! yeh..old..dats d word..funny i knw...
so as always...a strange idea cropped up in my mind !!! i knw dis idea wud jus not be easily digestable by my family....naah !!! dey wudnt jus accept !! bt as always i'm d one to cut d ribbon...coz u knw, it's always d first time....
so after i guess 18 yrs, i got short hair...yeh..almost d same as i had wen i was two...ha..i looked strange fr d first few days...i mean yeh, wasnt used to dis look of myself !!!
won't go into d religious intracacies of shud i have or shud i haven't done it..bt in d end, yeh i was happy...n dats wat matters....coz if i'm happy, i can keep others happy around me...took sometime fr my parents to digest it..to get used to seein me without my manes....
d main concern of my parents was my turban !! dey feared i wud move away frm my culture..my identity...ha...bt dat wud never happen ??
sometimes its kinda funny (n frustratin too, wen u'e asked d same question 10 times a day)..dat y i gt my hair cut wen i'm still gonna wear my turban....maybe dey think i did it fr d looks..huh !! wat else can embellish a person's personality n looks more dan wat a nicely tied turban does !! i love my turban n my culture !! proud to be a TURBANATOR !!!

obvioulsy, my rebelious acts arent gonna get me a garland of roses frm my relatives bt i guess i've kinda stopped carin abt it...who's gt d time to think on dese things...live d way u feel comfortable without troublin or harmin others...wat's d fuss !!!

ha..i kinda feel somewat statisfied n content of all d things i've done..most of which my family was against, in d beginnin bt yeh, wid time, wen dey gt to see d reasons...dey understood....main thing being..if i believed in somethin, i followd it honestly..y to fake up things wen u don believ in dem !!

in nutshell................

"believe in wat u live for.....n live wat u believe for"

Pumpin iron !!




okie...jus a recap on d task list .. :

  • MBA prep (wud dat ever start !!!??) ---- na still not started !!!!!
  • Guitar (ah..now dats wat i'm gonna do, dis summer of 06) --- jus playin songs all day !!
  • Vocals (jus afraid my neighbours won't lodge a complain against me..) --- started a bit
  • Gym (srry keerti..bt i really wanna build up a bit !! dis aint enough..) -- yipeeeE !!!!
  • @ --- ah..workin on a 30 page doc. i was expected to submit decades back..still workin..
  • Programin (i knw dat's jus not me bt i wanna excel in web development !! ) -- naaH ~!!
  • Readin (ha..now dat i'm gettin used to it..d pace needs to be worked upon ! ) -- wen will i get my library card issued !!!!!!

oh k..so it's not dat i havent started doin work !! actually ya..kinda correct till yesterday...bt today..i did work..a lot..okie..if not a lot !!..quite much of it !!!..even though i woke up at 9 a.m. (dat sucks !!!really..u feel as if almost half d day is gone..rest u waste cursin y u woke up soo late !!)....i thought not of doin d 'cursin' thing again..so, i decided to live my day fr 12 hrs. today..9a.m. to 9 p.m...maybe dat cud work out better...!! atleast wud be easier to keep a track of it !! so i started off wid my vocal riyaaz (even though it wasn't early mornin, wen it's suppose to be done..moreover everyone's still asleep n won't get to hear ur 1 hour long "saaaa.."..lolzz)..still went ahead n did it..rest of d day majorly went in preparin d 30 page @ doc...oh man..it really made me go crazy !! n yeh, i discovered features i never had ever seen bfore in MS-Word !! wow..its not jus a text editor guys !!

evenin...enjoyed d rainy weather outside (yeh..i did waste time !!!)...wat else do u do wen dere's an unexpected downpour after a >40 degree celsius afternoon...after i realised i'd jus wasted abt 1/4 th of my 12 hr. day today..thought it's time to go to d gym n get out my frustrations on those stubborn weights !!! n hey i didnt tell u abt my new gym !!!!! my task list no.4 !! - see i told you i've started workin on it !!!

okie..so dis gym dat i jus joined 2 days back..supposedly charges me 150 bucks more dan others coz it's an "air conditioned" gym...which i never noticed it is !! ha..dey keep all d windows n doors open to prevent suffocation..so how do u knw if d ac's workin or not !! den d owner..a 21-22 yr old hunk...who's gt this bulgin bt loose biceps (dat really looks pathetic)..always seen talkin to those 'pretty' chicks in d gym..pretty is my imagination once dey shed those extra pounds !! n dat's gonna take quite sometime !!

d ambience..d music..d machines r all good...bt those posters on d walls !!! oh man !! i'm used to d pics of d guys wid dis enormous build up..dat wud even put dat stupid green colored monster "HUNK" to shame !!...bt still dat's tolerable...bt right next to those pics, u see the pics of 'female' bodybuilders !!!! patheeeeeetttttiiiiiiccccc !!!!!!!! seriously pathetic man...barely covered body..n those perfectly flexed up muscles !! wid those bulgin out nerves frm each n every point...eeeeeewwwwwwwww !!!! that's like totally horrible..don knw y dey gt them dere !! d guys won't get inspired by them (maybe a bit pumped up!!) n d grls !! ha..dey'll be more dan thankful, once dey get themselves into dat 36-26-36 shape...dey don deisre much !!!! bt there're a few exceptions too !! grls who seem to have a fine physique !! bt still workin out so much !! well d females here aren't dat health freak too !! sometimes i guess, d owner doesnt charge dem ..at all !! maybe he's jus gt dem to attract d guys !!!!! who knws man !! everythin's fair in love n business !!!! or maybe dey're jus dere fr some guy huntin !! cud be !! naaaaahh !!!!

bt d best part abt good n spacious gyms is dat..all along d walls dey gt dese huge mirrors....n d funniest part..esp. wid d new ones...includin me too...jus after dey do a set (dat's like 12 repititions of some exercise)...dey'll go n stand close to d mirror n start shapin up their muscles..as if those 12 reps/1 set would've made those '1-2-3 kids' into 'hulk hogan'...wid some guys, it's not jus a habit bt a problem..a fascination...jus 5 mins of exercise n next 30 mins..u see dem admirin their own body in frnt of d mirror !! not d case wid d new ones bt some 'macho' guys too who'll clean off d whole gym wen dey gt to work out...won't even leave a single weight fr u !! coz dey jus can't have enough !!!.....bt anyone hardly cares abt dem or deir magnificently articulated body structure as soon as those "a bit over weight" damsels step into d gym !! ha..dat's d way it is !! okie..i guess i wrote quite a lot..!! so let me stop it here !!

hopin tomorrow turns out to be brighter, productive n stressed out...n yeh, early too !!!!!

" tomorrow never dies.. "

phew !!! ready..get..set..go !!! ???



oh k...so finally i gt rid of everythin..exams..college n placements (fr atleast next 1 month)..so now d actual race starts...race against time..race against success...race against achievement..a race against myself !!!
d whole plan's ready..d strategies r in !! d priorities set out :
  • MBA prep (wud dat ever start !!!??)
  • Guitar (ah..now dats wat i'm gonna do, dis summer of 06)
  • Vocals (jus afraid my neighbours won't lodge a complain against me..)
  • Gym (srry keerti..bt i really wanna build up a bit !! dis aint enough..)
  • @ (gt to get things goin..wud i be able to do it ???!! make a difference !??)
  • Programin (i knw dat's jus not me bt i wanna excel in web development !! )
  • Readin (ha..now dat i'm gettin used to it..d pace needs to be worked upon ! )

okie..so in d list it doesnt seem to be much..bt it's a mammoth tasklist..trust me on dat !!!!...neways...gt to do it anyhow...dis summer i wanna party..i wanna travel bt only after i've earned it..wen i really sweat it out n die fr a break !!! ..

so...enough of talkin..talkin n talkin...lets jus get down wid it !!!

"Let's get it started !!!!!"

EXAMS...perfect time for introspection !!

ah...it's again dat time of d year which freaks out all d engg. nerds !! d same scene everywhere...library fully occupied like a "kisaan mandi" (i knw dat didnt make sense)..all around u see ppl wid piles of books in dere hands...ready wid their gOoGLe glasses..all set to conquer d world !! yeh..for dem, d world starts from "rrigation engineerin" n ends on "structural design"...don gt scared..dese r jus 2 of d annoyin subjecs we gt in our civil engg. course !! ...
bt for me..."exam time" means d time to introspect..even though i hate dis time of d sessions as much as i hate "baingan" (brinjal)....bt still, i don knw if its d fear of d exams or d results dat makes me think of evrythin else bt studies !!
jus a week bfore exams..i feel so geared up..so much motivated to be "somethin" in life..to get up n claim my space on dis planet...to show ppl i'm not jus another straw in d haystack !! mind u, dis has nothin to do wid my studies !!
d exams r gonna get over in another 10 days..n den after another month..we'll be havin our campus placements...some of India's biggest technical firms comin down to our college for recruitements !! n i jus don wanna be there wid d same CV in my hand which starts wid "ur name, father's name" n ends on a fake, exaggerated 2 line motivation letter for statin d reason y i want to work in dat specific firm !! ...i jus wanna do somethin different !! somethin big !! everyone wants to ...bt in d end, d ppl who succeed r d ones who go ahead n do it !! not jus dreamin abt it all day long..
being brought up in a conservative middle class indian family, it's not unusual dat u're studyin in one of d best engineerin colleges of d country even if u hate engineerin..n u've started peparin fr MBA bcoz dat's wat wud further scale up ur pay even bfore u start workin !! so first u load up urself wid all kind of tech. degrees..loads of certificates n all..u're 23 yrs..n now u've gt to jus somehow get into a big MNC which wont be tough if u've done all dis frm reputed institutions..n den, jus sit there in ur cabin...work frm 8 am to god knows wat time !! collect d fat salary cheque every first week of d month..n get to spend all dat money wid ur family in dose 10-15 holidays u'd get, if any, in d whole year !!
i jus don wanna live dat monotonous kinda life..money's not everythin...yeh, i realized it after being 20, dat dere's a world, more colorful n more beautiful dan " fleet of mercedes sedans" n "big mansions in d most posh area of d town".....
n i knw to make ur dreams a reality, it's gonna take much more dan jus sheer luck or plain hardwork !! u need a deadly combo of both !!
n as Robin Sharma beautifully puts up in his blog...
here's an excerpt :

"Easy to forget that successful people didn't just wake up that way. They started off ordinary - with a goal - and then focused on the daily small steps required to reach it. And as the days slipped into weeks and the weeks into months and the month into years, their dream became more alive. Each day, they practice.
So....devote to practice.
-practice getting up at 5 am each day. It'll get easier (that's what practice does).
-practice being more positive and passionate
-practice being more spectacular at what you do at work (good question: “how would you show up at work if you were the best in the world at what you do?” Start working toward that and your career will skyrocket (how could it not?)
-practice being kinder and more patient
-practice enriching your mind and knowledge base by reading for an hour each day
-practice balancing work and your personal life
-practice getting super fit
Nothing wonderful ever comes without practice"


i'm gonna sweat it out dis summer...ha..wat else wud u expect wen it's over 45 degrees celsuis...okie..no PJ's...seriously, gt to do somethin ...had enough jus being a part of d crowd..now it's time to get ppl crowded up fr u !! i still don knw wat dat "somethin" is dat i'm preparin for !! bt fr sure..i'll be prepared !!!

"Nothing happens until you move."

Thanx for being dere...always...


he's d one who's always been there for me...listened to all my thoughts..all my complaints..all my wishes...all my stories...no matter how much time it took, no matter how much sense i made !! he listened to it quietly...he never replied back...his actions did !!
d only one who knows me inside out !! d only one who stands by me even wen d whole world's against me...coz he knows wen i'm rite n wen i'm not !!

its kinda funny how ppl contradict his existence..bcoz those 'fools' jus dont see him...n thats y they can't even feel him..or i guess, they jus simply deny d fact !!..u can't see air, u can't see heat...bt u can feel dem..then how can't dey feel "him"...

n d way he works his wonders is jus amazin..he does wats best for u !! u'll get frustrated at him, irritated bcoz of him !! jus bcoz he doesn't work d way u want him to in d beginnin...dat's bcoz he's much more far sighted than us !! n then, in d end, after realizin..our simple "thank u" is enough to take care of all those allegations n frustrations...

i didnt have many friends...yeh, loads of class mates...batch mates...but "friends"in d true sense..extremely few..bt yeh, i gt "u"..thnx for being dere always for me...i've gt d "best buddy"..ha..n i'm more dan satisfied...yeh, u tend to trouble me sometimes bt i guess, dats ur way of helpin me to grow n learn...thnx....thnx a lot for everythin !!

P.S. : for those viewin this post..this is no 9 yr old writin a letter to god..well, wen i was datyoung, i wanted to do dat...bt where to send it ???...so now, wen we've got d technology, i don feel ashamed in postin dis msg up..d feelins r still d same as wen i was nine...now, i guess, it'll be much easier for him to read it too !! : )

:Life's good !!

ah..after so long man !! after so long, i'm happy n to be precise... "content" wid myself..wid my life..it's jus these few moments that one lives for !!

y ?? well..today somewhat went quite good, almost as i had planned..almost all tasks completed !! woke up on time...studied...had fun...completed pendin work..did @ work..helped out at d shop.everythin !! almost !! i'm not sayin it was all p[erfect but atleast i improved..improved enough dat i cud notice d change myself !!
..yesterday too...went to barista 35 all alone..was gettin bored at home..so thought of goin for a coffee..n there, obviously i met aiesec'ers as always..bt den ritam appeared somehow..i don knw after how long, did we actually have a nice long chat..seriously, friendships jus don fade away.!! n take my word on dat !! they dooon't !!!
n then jus now wen i checked my inbox..i'd recieved a mail frm maike..my first @ trainee buddy, i still remember..bt her mail !! out of d blues..ha..i guess after 2 years or so..still, it felt good to c ppl still remember me..
n recently d amazin friend circle i've developed on orkut..oh man..seriously, hardy wrote down a whole "work out" n "diet chart" for me !! parneet ,frm NID, writin mails..motivatin me...cousellin me abt designin course..seriously.. d ppl i didnt knw, a week back, they;re takin out time for me..to help me out wid my probs n all..guidin me as i've been one of their childhood pals !!..ha...life's amazin yaar...i knw, u wud be laughin after readin all this..bt these small things do matter a lot to me !! i really care for these small small things coz these r d things dat make ur life, ur time so special !!
i'm livin life " 24 hours long " finally..atleast i managed to do dat today !!...


"24 hours...long way to go..still...bt i'm happy !!! "

Five Point Someone

yeh, i knw most of u wud've read this book aptly named as "Five Point Someone" ages back..but yeh, i jus gt my hands on it yesterday..n yeh, after finishin d 280+ pages, i cud jus saw one word abt it.."amaaaazin"..seriously man, no doubt this book remains one of d hot favourites of d engineerin students !!...i mean, u can jus relate to d characters so easily..venkat, alok, ryan, hari n d ol' pesty prof's like cherian..well some good one's too like prof veera..

man, it's jus so amazin n 'relieven' too to read that book...i felt so good, i didnt try for IITs..i mean d routine..d attitude..d stuff..jus not d place for me !!!
yup, n moreover d thought d author delivers in d end "life isnt jus abt being a good GPA scorer but being a good person"..n 'm so proud of myself, dat i've followed dis golden rule, most of d times...
College life is d time wen u're grown up...enough to do all kind of crazy stuff !! but still, young enough, to not worry abt d consequences...obviously, it's time to experiment wid urself...ah..not wid ur career bt yeh, wid ur attitude..wid ur self..so dat, u can find out urself wat's good n wat's not for u !!!...
n yeh, even after screwin up..i guess to d max. extent dat one cud, d trio - alok, ryan n hari still managed to get all that they wanted...yup..it's d end dat matters..doesnt matter how u reach it, till d time u're fully aware of wat u're doin n ready to take d responsibilty for it !!

ah..man...i was so glad after all of them "lived happily ever after.." supposedly !!....i cudnt jus stop dancin n celebratin...i was into d story, so much !! n yeh, i knw i'm writin this for d 10th time ..again..but yeh ...i enjoyed it....

"learn frm d past, prepare for d future...but yeh, don forget to live d present"

It's Now or Never !!!

wat !!!
yeh..u read it correctly "It's Now or Never"....let's c....keep waitin till then !!!

"It's Now or Never - that's it"

'Sorry' seems to be the hardest word ..!

i don knw y i was feelin d way i was !!..it happens sometimes, but i really never get to knw y so !!...so as always, yeh..i mishbehaved...i was rude...n then after sometime, i realized that..but then, had a strange inhibition that didnt let me accept my fault...but then, musterin up some courage, i did say 'Sorry'...dis magical word's jus so relievin...not only did it geta smile on their faces but it made me feel much more comfortable n at ease...
i knw dis post wudn't make any sense to u, but i felt so nice abt it..so i jus posted it up here..njoi..

"never too late to accept ur mistake..i'm happy i didnt delay it much !!.."