Times change...so do most of the things ...

seeing her after so long...was a bit tough gettin my mind off her...even if, it was jus a glimpse of her, it seemed like a long 3-hour bollywood film...almost being together, playiin together n virtually livin together for almost 2 yrs as tiny tots...n today, she didnt even recognize me..or even if she did, wasn't evident...
don knw...times have certainly changed n so has the attitude...
being so close to each other..the best of pals..in those days of innocence...my mom used to actually call her my "girlfriend"..n yeh i was jus 3 yrs old...
but as always, good times don't last for long..otherwise u wouldn't get to knw their worth !!
so after shiftin over to a new place...i didnt meet her for next 6-7 yrs..n wen we did actually meet up again...we both were grown up enough...that feelin of being mature or jus actin mature, didnt actually let me open up..be at the same comfort level with her....
today, after i saw her (in that amazin pink tee) i kinda realized wat i had lost...n yeh, this kind of a feelin is not a common one for me...
her face was still the same...round n a bit chubby as always...those big eyes filled wid the same magnetism...everythin seemed to be jus too familiar...was jus like as if i see her everyday..she hadn't changed much...except for the way she carried her..she wasn't a 3 yr old kid now...a lot changes in 17 years..her feminine aroma was all in the air..the svelte'ness in her walk..oh k..i don wanna get carried away again...
but yeh..i wanna meet her again..i wanna laugh ,on the silly things we did as kids..i still wanna share all my things with her...i wanna see her again..

"Just because u loved someone doesnt mean u have to involved with them.

Love is not a bandage to cover up d wounds."

n hey..it was jus a quote...don think i'm in love !!#$%&^*$

Dear God....

hmm..was jus goin thru a mail neharika'd sent..containin few "letters to GOD" written by small kids...well, the letters did in the first instance, reflect the sheer innocence of those kids...but yeh, this letter except being very innocently n sweetly written by a 6-7 yr. old, made me ponder over the thought of - "how busy we get in our race with time, that we jus forget to live, love n enjoy with our family"...jus for few momentary pleasures n happiness..we tend to forget n ignore those who're gonna stick up with us n share d same warmth n love no matter wat , thru all d thick n thins of fate... give it a thought ....

tere bin...

simply an amazin song...originally sung by rabbi, it's not the first song that i learnt on the guitar but yeh my all-time favourite.. no doubt, whenevr i pick up my guitar for practice, i somehow unconsciously start playin it's chords...whether sittin alone or wid d whole group of friends...depressed or in the best of my moods...jus love to play this song...

n as the song goes "tere bin sanu sohnia, koi hor nahio labhna" , i don think , i'll ever find another song as beautiful n rich as this one...

so wenver u wanna get high..sing n play it along on ur guitar...works for me !!

here's it goes....n for those of u who don't understand punjabi..there's the translation for it too..

tere bin / besides you
sanu sohnia / my love
koi hor nahio labhna / i shan't find another
jo deve / who'll give
ruh nu sakun / peace to my soul
chukke jo nakhra mera / and indulge me
ve main sare ghumm ke vekhia / i have gone and seen it all
amrika , roos, malaysia / america, russia, malaysia
kittey vi koi fark si / there wasn't any difference
har kise di koi shart si / they all had some condition
koi mangda mera si sama / some asked for my time
koi hunda surat te fida / some were fascinated with my face
koi mangda meri si vafa / some demanded my fidelity
na koi mangda merian bala / none wanted my demons
tere bin / besides you
hor na kise / no one else
mangni merian bala / wanted my demons
tere bin / besides you
hor na kise / no one else
karni dhup vich chhaan / shall shade me in the sun ......

" jus live it high "

jus random...

its not d same...n i don know y but yeh, i do miss those good ol' times a lot...the past one year's been jus so fast yet so eventful...all those wonderful moments, those amazin moments jus faded away before i could capture them, before i could realize their worth...after livin in virtual solitude for so long, life couldn't have been more happenin for me !!!...but it was all jus too fast for me to grasp it...to feel knw how much ppl loved me..to sense how much i meant to someone...to judge whether my actions would hurt anyone...to simply realize that it would be one of the most beautiful memories i would treasure forever..f.o.r.e.v.e.r....

n then all of a sudden..it jus goes away like a dream...don knw how...don knw when..but yeh..it's gone !!!

life's changed a lot...ppl have changed a lot...n me ?...yeh, i'm also tryin to change !!!...tryin hard to be like them...act like them..but yeh, its jus not that simple for me...
ppl r not the same anymore...that warmth's not there...that feelin of selflessness is not there...that genuinity in their hearts...nah...it's jus not there...
n that has made me so judgemental...it's jus too hard for me now, even to take a compliment...ha..i can myself laugh on that..but it's true....d feelins r not there neither r those emotions..don knw y but jus can't open up now...'m jus too scared of loosin wat i haven't even earned yet..n maybe thats d reason i haven't...
i wanna go back in time... wanna be with d same ppl... wanna share d same warmth n love... i jus wanna be the same ol' "me"...d same ol' "me".....

quite easy to say as always, but yeh still to accept it.....

" Life's Unfair, Deal with iT "

pumped up !! will it work !!

well..another day jus ended..nothin much concrete except the plans..but being optimistic as always, i know i've got another fresh 24 hours to start with..another 24 hours to make it happen..n i'm pumped up to go for it..try n organise it like always n yet like never before..the tasklist is ready..be it the mornin exercise or the evenin guitar practice, practicals in college or MBA classes in evenin, catchin up with the 'angels n demons' or preparin plans for @ learnin events..i know the lists goes on n on..but i'm ready for it..pumped up for it..24 hours..jus 24 hours !!..got to make it happen tom..

" Life's Unfair, Deal with iT "- thats wat i believe in...

finally..it's up here..perfect day for a start !!!

Loads of responsibilities growin up on u day by day..deadlines comin up closer..havin enough time to do away with all priorities but still failin to do so, yeh don know how but time does fly by.. !!!
so jus sittin in front of my old p3 n guessin how to get rid of the frustration, for not being able to live the way i want to..for not being able to work the way i want to..well, random thoughts came up my mind..y not start blogging !!! y not jus throw it up all here instead of keepin it inside my head..so yeh finally it's up here..my own blog !!!
now all u ppl who thought i'm too shy a person to jus let anyone sneak-a-boo into my life..hope i get to prove u wrong !!

DISCLAIMER : Don't expect any jazzy language stuff, any spiced up gossips here...nope, not in this place...but yeh don't complain about d random stuff u may come across on this blog..coz no matter how much organised i seem to be as an individual, i'm pretty random at times !!!...

" Life's Unfair, Deal with iT "- thats wat i believe in...