'Entangled' ..u gt d key !

hmmm...introspectin upon my daily chores...esp. d decision making processes...d critical conditions where its either black or white...d difficult times wen it jus becomes too too easy to quit!

introspectin..introspectin..i realize..dat hw much ever 'entangled' we gt into d complications of our work..d key..d solution often lies with us onli...esp, durin my wrkin n managin of We Volunteer, i realised, dat fr every thing u wanna judge, d number of pro's n con's r jus d same...its abt wat u wanna choose....d empty half of d glass or d full one !

n to no surprise, 90% wud go fr d empty one...dat makes dem more comfortable to crib about..to find faults in..& to bitch abt..coz den dats all dey gtta do !! nthin else !!

everytime, u want to take a decision...it depends on wat u want !! its never abt wat u can do..bt its al abt wat u wanna do !!! coz wen u find a 1000 reasons nt to follow d path u wanna take, u'll find another 1000 y u shud stick to dat path onli !!

so guess....its nthin bt jus weavin a web...depends how much u wanna weave to gt ur kill...or hw much u wanna weave jus fr d sake of it !!..wont make muc sense to u...lol..i knw !

bt again...steer it as u want...nt as d road goes..d road will be laid dwn on its own! :)

"for d one who weaves d web, its nt a maze to be entangled in!"

So many things i wanna do !!

well...its not recent that i gt bit by d whole web bug !! but yeh, web 2.0 jus doesnt seem to end amazin me all d time...!!

if u knw me well..or u've been readin my blog regularly (hw come, wen i dont write regularly :p)...u knw dat i'm always into jus any n all activities...i wanna play guitar n i also wanna gym..i wanna learn dutch n i also wanna do flash! i wanna make movies n i also wanna be an entreprenuer..i wanna learn programmin n i also wanna travel..i wanna wanna wanna...

jus so much i 'wanna' do !! d list never seems to end ! n i guess dats wid everyone ! rite ??

well..jus surfin thru, in d evenin tday..came across something dat may help me in organisin myself a bit !! yeah, a bit !! coz doin wat i've been tryin to do, since d time i realised i've grown up!, wouldnt be simple enough !!

43 things.com...well dis web 2.0 site is a gr8 thing...it jus lets u put up max of 43 things u wud wanna do ! n den blog abt it..post entries..ppl can comment on dem ! u can also find others who share d same "to do things" as yours...like i found 848 others who also wanted to learn flash :)

i guess, dis new thing wud make my tedious task of organisin activites a bit more simpler n jazzier :) i mean its kinda fun onli :)

so ..jus check it out while i sort my 'things' out :)

visit : http://www.43things.com/person/preetarjun

"happy thing'ing"

i walk a lonely road..d onli one i' have ever known !

nt jus singin away d 'boulevard of broken dreams' by greenday playin in my winamp...bt somethin dat jus used to haunt me every now n den...bt no more now !~

coz nw its jus a part of wat i call "my life" ! still skeptical as to whether i jus blog it out or nt..bt den wats d harm! i knw PSV..its jus U who's gnna be readin it :) so wats d harm!

dn knw...bt dere's jus been so much of loneliness since i started growin up..coz dat time i realized u call dis lOneLineSS..i loved it..i hate'd it...i enjoyed it...i cursed it...i ran away from it...i wished for it...i wanted it badly at times...but den didnt want it to be bad...

i guess jus cudnt differentiate between privacy n loneliness....sometimes bcame an open book...but den expected the same frm others too...

tried to be a friend at its best...yet cudnt find anyone whom i cud call a best frnd...though god did bless me jus miracles at times ('k')..yet i knw, dats nt gnna be fr long either..!!

love my family...dey love me..dn knw abt isha..bt yeh, others do...still dis strange feelin of coldness...always felt away..sometimes dey did make me realise dat..sometimes i jus wanted to realise dat !...is it me ? den y is it me ? how is it me ? how i cant be dat me ?!

do i like dis loneliness...i do at times..best part of it, u expect onli "NOTHING" frm others...so u don end up gettin hurt each time..u dn care dat dey didnt inform u abt dis n dat...u dn get hurt dey didnt think of u den..

so i guess...need no friends...no family...no one...jus me cud be enough...cant take dat feelin of gttin hurt everytime...jus givin fake smiles to ur frnds...fake fake fake everywhr...sometimes jus feel so much hatred fr dis world...everyone iut dere jus fr deir own selfish reasons...n i'm too amongst dem...still hv to crib abt it...

y jus cant we live it out alone onli....i guess its either dat i'm jus gttin too used to be livin in d online websphere onli ..or jus dat i've grown up enough to analyse d crude realities of d world !

or either...i was jus plain unlucky...dat i grew so dumb..so as to choose d wrong set of frnds..whom to care for...n also nt to care, abt dose who were d true ones...huh ! so its nt a "no gain-no loss:" thingi...bt jus loss loss n more loss all d way round....wish nw i'll be able to cling onto d true ones...n jus learn hw to nt adjust wid d others...

i jus dn knw wat all crap i've written out dere tday !!! u cud even vote it fr d worst blog ever by me !!!! ....bt jus one thing i wud say...it was straight as it is frm my head n heart...all workd up...jus hd enough...enough...n enough of enough.....

"crap right frm d heart..njoi"