Thanx for being dere...always...

he's d one who's always been there for me...listened to all my thoughts..all my complaints..all my wishes...all my stories...no matter how much time it took, no matter how much sense i made !! he listened to it quietly...he never replied back...his actions did !!
d only one who knows me inside out !! d only one who stands by me even wen d whole world's against me...coz he knows wen i'm rite n wen i'm not !!

its kinda funny how ppl contradict his existence..bcoz those 'fools' jus dont see him...n thats y they can't even feel him..or i guess, they jus simply deny d fact !!..u can't see air, u can't see heat...bt u can feel dem..then how can't dey feel "him"...

n d way he works his wonders is jus amazin..he does wats best for u !! u'll get frustrated at him, irritated bcoz of him !! jus bcoz he doesn't work d way u want him to in d beginnin...dat's bcoz he's much more far sighted than us !! n then, in d end, after realizin..our simple "thank u" is enough to take care of all those allegations n frustrations...

i didnt have many friends...yeh, loads of class mates...batch mates...but "friends"in d true sense..extremely few..bt yeh, i gt "u"..thnx for being dere always for me...i've gt d "best buddy"..ha..n i'm more dan satisfied...yeh, u tend to trouble me sometimes bt i guess, dats ur way of helpin me to grow n learn...thnx....thnx a lot for everythin !!

P.S. : for those viewin this post..this is no 9 yr old writin a letter to god..well, wen i was datyoung, i wanted to do dat...bt where to send it ???...so now, wen we've got d technology, i don feel ashamed in postin dis msg up..d feelins r still d same as wen i was nine...now, i guess, it'll be much easier for him to read it too !! : )

:Life's good !!

ah..after so long man !! after so long, i'm happy n to be precise... "content" wid myself..wid my life..it's jus these few moments that one lives for !!

y ?? well..today somewhat went quite good, almost as i had planned..almost all tasks completed !! woke up on time...studied...had fun...completed pendin work..did @ work..helped out at d shop.everythin !! almost !! i'm not sayin it was all p[erfect but atleast i improved..improved enough dat i cud notice d change myself !!
..yesterday too...went to barista 35 all alone..was gettin bored at home..so thought of goin for a coffee..n there, obviously i met aiesec'ers as always..bt den ritam appeared somehow..i don knw after how long, did we actually have a nice long chat..seriously, friendships jus don fade away.!! n take my word on dat !! they dooon't !!!
n then jus now wen i checked my inbox..i'd recieved a mail frm maike..my first @ trainee buddy, i still remember..bt her mail !! out of d blues..ha..i guess after 2 years or so..still, it felt good to c ppl still remember me..
n recently d amazin friend circle i've developed on orkut..oh man..seriously, hardy wrote down a whole "work out" n "diet chart" for me !! parneet ,frm NID, writin mails..motivatin me...cousellin me abt designin course..seriously.. d ppl i didnt knw, a week back, they;re takin out time for me..to help me out wid my probs n all..guidin me as i've been one of their childhood pals !!..ha...life's amazin yaar...i knw, u wud be laughin after readin all this..bt these small things do matter a lot to me !! i really care for these small small things coz these r d things dat make ur life, ur time so special !!
i'm livin life " 24 hours long " finally..atleast i managed to do dat today !!...

"24 hours...long way to go..still...bt i'm happy !!! "

Five Point Someone

yeh, i knw most of u wud've read this book aptly named as "Five Point Someone" ages back..but yeh, i jus gt my hands on it yesterday..n yeh, after finishin d 280+ pages, i cud jus saw one word abt it.."amaaaazin"..seriously man, no doubt this book remains one of d hot favourites of d engineerin students !!...i mean, u can jus relate to d characters so easily..venkat, alok, ryan, hari n d ol' pesty prof's like cherian..well some good one's too like prof veera..

man, it's jus so amazin n 'relieven' too to read that book...i felt so good, i didnt try for IITs..i mean d routine..d attitude..d stuff..jus not d place for me !!!
yup, n moreover d thought d author delivers in d end "life isnt jus abt being a good GPA scorer but being a good person"..n 'm so proud of myself, dat i've followed dis golden rule, most of d times...
College life is d time wen u're grown up...enough to do all kind of crazy stuff !! but still, young enough, to not worry abt d consequences...obviously, it's time to experiment wid urself...ah..not wid ur career bt yeh, wid ur attitude..wid ur self..so dat, u can find out urself wat's good n wat's not for u !!!...
n yeh, even after screwin up..i guess to d max. extent dat one cud, d trio - alok, ryan n hari still managed to get all that they wanted...yup..it's d end dat matters..doesnt matter how u reach it, till d time u're fully aware of wat u're doin n ready to take d responsibilty for it !!

ah..man...i was so glad after all of them "lived happily ever after.." supposedly !!....i cudnt jus stop dancin n celebratin...i was into d story, so much !! n yeh, i knw i'm writin this for d 10th time ..again..but yeh ...i enjoyed it....

"learn frm d past, prepare for d future...but yeh, don forget to live d present"

It's Now or Never !!!

wat !!!
yeh..u read it correctly "It's Now or Never"....let's c....keep waitin till then !!!

"It's Now or Never - that's it"

'Sorry' seems to be the hardest word ..!

i don knw y i was feelin d way i was !!..it happens sometimes, but i really never get to knw y so !!...so as always, yeh..i mishbehaved...i was rude...n then after sometime, i realized that..but then, had a strange inhibition that didnt let me accept my fault...but then, musterin up some courage, i did say 'Sorry'...dis magical word's jus so relievin...not only did it geta smile on their faces but it made me feel much more comfortable n at ease...
i knw dis post wudn't make any sense to u, but i felt so nice abt it..so i jus posted it up here..njoi..

"never too late to accept ur mistake..i'm happy i didnt delay it much !!.."

Guitar Vs. Girlfriend

was jus goin to my guitar class after almost a decade today..okie..thats too exaggerated..maybe after 2 months..n don knw from where this wierd analogy started croppin up in my head btw a Guitar n a Girlfriend...

first of all, the similarities :

• both start wid a "G" !! ..yeh i knw thats a silly one...
• u're jus too excited wen u're in the initial stages...but wid time, it gets borin !!
• best time to hang out with them is after 10 p.m....in each other's arms..light breeze.. starry sky...hmmm...
• no matter how carin u be everytime..they need to be tuned everytime...again..again n again !!
• if u don play well, be prepared to face the noisy stuff !!
• u electrify them n jus be ready to get rOcK'eD...
• best pose to get a pic clicked wid them ...obviously..in each others' arms..
• Black on them jus looks amazin.. !!!
• u enjoy showin them off in front of ur friends !! yeh, some ppl do it buddy ..!!

yup..those were the major similarities, i could think of..

n now the differences :

• d guitar never asks u " how am i lookin today? " or " i've lost weight na?? "..wen u hold it..
• for a guitar, initial investment is a bit more but incurring expenses r hardly anythin..for a girlfriend..i don think u need an explanation...
• ur mom doesnt raise an eyebrow wen u go out at 11 p.m. wid ur guitar to barista...
• if u're gettin bored..u can take ur guitar to d boy's hostel n practice...aaan..u can think abt for the other case !!
• Guitar doesn't have a wierd fetish for Chocolates !!

ah..i knw there r a lot many..but i guess i've put up all d main ones..if u got any do post a remark...i'll update the post...

so ..all u guys who're single..n depressed !!..jus go n get urself a nice Guitar..i gaurantee, u'll be more than satisfied !!!

"strummmmmm...."

azaad...but the battle's just begun...

well...jus gt free from my sessional exams today..yup.."azaad"..thats how i feel..but this time i know i've screwed it up all..i jus didnt do good..n i'm sure, the marks r gonna speak that out...
so..the battle's begun again !!!..i'm gonna study regularly now..even though jus 1 month left for the finals, i'm gonna get it this time..bcoz this is the last semseter, where i can really score n improve my percentage...so i won't miss it this time!!!!
that doesnt mean i'm gonna compromise on guitar, AIESEC, MBA prep, gym or anythin else...i'm jus gonna make the day longer..yeh..i'm gonna make these "24 hours" longer..if not in all, i'm gonna get perfection in many of them!! n thats not impossible, as many say !! i'm gonna prove it !!! thats y i put it up here on d blog..so that i can prove, 'i do wat i say'...

"jack of all trades but master of none - dat ain't me"

mr. lonely..

Lonely
I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely.

its kinda funny...coz i take quite sometime before i can open up wid ppl, they mistake me for an introvert, while it's jus the prob i generally face in breakin up d ice wid a new group of ppl...many think, i like to be alone..lonely !!!...n i hate that..to be lonely !! but quite ironically, thats wat i've been for past some time..actually quite sometime...definitely not been that easy...been thru those sleepless nites..been thru those crappy days...been thru those moments of sudden outbursts of emotions..been thru all that.. but now, i feel a lot more mature...a lot more grown up...n a much less "lonely" !!! ...its not that bad to be wid urself all d time...it's good company if u try n make it one..esp. wen u got no other option...n wat better place than barista..u've got good music..u've got good coffee..u've got the best company..yeh, urself !!!...n even if that doesn't satisy one, then i guess the black acoustic guitar makes up for it... being so optimistic, i can't really overshadow the stress one goes thru...but yeh, one thing i realized durin this phase is...it gives u time to focus all ur attention on urself, which earlier was divided among some damn lucky fellows ; ) ...it gives u time to introspect..time to improve..time to work upon...time to make u better..a better individual...n that i guess would make the future times more memorable...more enjoyable...jus more n more….

auuuugggghhhhh .....

yeh...my blood's jus boilin rite now..thought maybe bloggin could help....wat happened ???..the old usual thing !!! another fierce argument wid the parents....n yeh, as always they're complainin n never satisfied....i remember, once carol had told me that if i did all wat my parents wanted me to, they wouldn't complain abt wat i do the rest of d time...but sorry sis, they jus proved u wrong today.....
for the past, i guess, 4 months there's been a tremendous decline in the no. of late night parties/ nite-outs i've done.. i've been much much more regular n punctual at the shop..i've tried to help as much as i can, wenever they asked me too...to be honest, i have really matured a lot wen it comes to my responsibilities towards my parents n my family....it's not that i'm blabbering that i'm doin great favours to them...but atleast i'm tryin my best to do, all that they expect me to...
but still, it's jus not enough for them...don't knw, but they're never satisfied...jus wen i ask for a small favour, it's never done in time !!! n that's jus the thing that i can't tolerate...if i live upto d expectations ppl have from me, i expect the same from them...
but still, i get to listen the same old things...that i don care abt anyone else..i'm enjoyin everythin - my college life n all...n i don care for anyone else..neither my parents, my family...not even my grandpa..ha...it's so simple for them to say stuff...but yeh, it's jus too hurtin for an emotional fool like me....................................................
i knw they love me a lot..but i wish they cud understand me better...i wish...

"i tried so hard n got so far, but in the end..it doesn't even matter"

Biddin' adieu to Civil ' 02

"time flies by" n yeh, u never get to knw...not bein cliche' but it really seems like a few days back, we got a freshers party from our seniors..almost 2 years over..n now, we bid farewell to them...no doubt, i hardly know 10% of them, but still 1 thing's for sure, it's gonna be a bit strange without them...hardly a month more n they'll be gone...whom wud we ask - how to make projects, how to handle those "nerd" professors..how to get thru those endless days/weeks of placement exams n interviews until we taste success in one..
but, chal...everyone's got to move ahead in life... n i wish the best for them...
however...the "farewell party" today was jus awesome..even more than that...somethin's were still the same like me not gettin off the dance floor bfore the DJ got out of his cabin..yeh, may sound funny, but for me its jus too hard to get off the floor wid the music still playin on...even if the DJ jus belt out irritatin n endless numbers of himesh reshamiya, the beats were good enough to keep me goin... as always, i did my rituals to have a few sips of d alcoholic stuff.. don't knw but curiosity jus makes me have it everytime..but then, its jus a few sips n moreover, drinks don work neways..but yeh, good music makes me high for sure..
the "sugar cubes" thingie didnt work much here as they do at AIESEC conferences..i guess, ppl aren't that expressive here..that's y...
n jus wen all the goodbye handshakes were done, jus ready to go..ankur goes to click a pic of the Police Station..wierd, i knw..i also don knw y he did that...but yeh, as quite obvious, the police constables were quite angry wid that flash on their faces..."say cheese" couldn't have worked for them either..n to make it worse, the sub inspector took his camera inside...bcoz he wanted to take out the film from the camera...yeh, from a Digi-Cam..n that technology is jus wid chandigarh police..ha...
but yeh, wen they were over wid all their "moral lectures" n a few signatures on some application, they let him go...i guess, they had their share of entertainment too..
chalo, all's well that end's well...yup...except for my terrible bodyache i got..but still, 5 hours of non stop music, masti n dance r certainly worth much more than that....ahan ???

"CIVIL ROCKS"

certainly, no doubt on that one