i walk a lonely road..d onli one i' have ever known !

nt jus singin away d 'boulevard of broken dreams' by greenday playin in my winamp...bt somethin dat jus used to haunt me every now n den...bt no more now !~

coz nw its jus a part of wat i call "my life" ! still skeptical as to whether i jus blog it out or nt..bt den wats d harm! i knw PSV..its jus U who's gnna be readin it :) so wats d harm!

dn knw...bt dere's jus been so much of loneliness since i started growin up..coz dat time i realized u call dis lOneLineSS..i loved it..i hate'd it...i enjoyed it...i cursed it...i ran away from it...i wished for it...i wanted it badly at times...but den didnt want it to be bad...

i guess jus cudnt differentiate between privacy n loneliness....sometimes bcame an open book...but den expected the same frm others too...

tried to be a friend at its best...yet cudnt find anyone whom i cud call a best frnd...though god did bless me jus miracles at times ('k')..yet i knw, dats nt gnna be fr long either..!!

love my family...dey love me..dn knw abt isha..bt yeh, others do...still dis strange feelin of coldness...always felt away..sometimes dey did make me realise dat..sometimes i jus wanted to realise dat !...is it me ? den y is it me ? how is it me ? how i cant be dat me ?!

do i like dis loneliness...i do at times..best part of it, u expect onli "NOTHING" frm others...so u don end up gettin hurt each time..u dn care dat dey didnt inform u abt dis n dat...u dn get hurt dey didnt think of u den..

so i guess...need no friends...no family...no one...jus me cud be enough...cant take dat feelin of gttin hurt everytime...jus givin fake smiles to ur frnds...fake fake fake everywhr...sometimes jus feel so much hatred fr dis world...everyone iut dere jus fr deir own selfish reasons...n i'm too amongst dem...still hv to crib abt it...

y jus cant we live it out alone onli....i guess its either dat i'm jus gttin too used to be livin in d online websphere onli ..or jus dat i've grown up enough to analyse d crude realities of d world !

or either...i was jus plain unlucky...dat i grew so dumb..so as to choose d wrong set of frnds..whom to care for...n also nt to care, abt dose who were d true ones...huh ! so its nt a "no gain-no loss:" thingi...bt jus loss loss n more loss all d way round....wish nw i'll be able to cling onto d true ones...n jus learn hw to nt adjust wid d others...

i jus dn knw wat all crap i've written out dere tday !!! u cud even vote it fr d worst blog ever by me !!!! ....bt jus one thing i wud say...it was straight as it is frm my head n heart...all workd up...jus hd enough...enough...n enough of enough.....

"crap right frm d heart..njoi"